Adalah bodoh untuk menangisi sesuatu yang x significant dalam hidup....so saya tidak akan menangis...
Saya cuma nak mengumumkan yang saya BUKAN LAGI seorang penyokong Kelab Bolasepak Arsenal F.C. Keputusan untuk menarik diri dari menjadi penyokong Arsenal F.C telah dibuat atas dasar kekecewaan saya setelah AKSI MEMALUKAN tewas kepada Newcastle United di EMIRATES STADIUM dalam perlawanan Liga Perdana Inggeris baru-baru ini.
Daripada saya terus dikecewakan oleh pasukan Arsenal F.C, adalah lebih baik saya menarik diri dari menjadi penyokong kelab Arsenal F.C dan menumpukan perhatian bagi menyokong pasukan bolasepak kebangsaan JERMAN yang saya rasakan lebih berpeluang untuk merangkul kejuaraan.
Keputusan ini dibuat juga setelah 'tali-tali' harapan saya sudah putus semuanya diatas kegagalan demi kegagalan kelab tersebut untuk meraih sebarang kejayaan didalam pertandingan yang disertai semenjak 6 tahun yang lepas.
Saya juga ingin merakam jutaan terima kasih kepada Arsene Wenger diatas usaha beliau selama menjadi Pengurus Pasukan Arsenal F.C tapi ingin menyatakan juga bahawa saya sudah HILANG KEPRCAYAAN terhadap keupayaan beliau untuk terus membimbing pasukan Arsenal F.C menuju kejayaan.
Ini diatas kegagalan beliau untuk memperbaiki kelemahan kelemahan utama pasukan Arsenal F.C terutamanya bahagian pertahanan yang seolah2 'baru' bermain bolasepak dan melakukan kesalahan kesalahan 'budak sekolah' seperti gol yang dijaringkan Newcastle United pada perlawanan baru-baru ini. Pada pendapat saya, beliau juga telah gagal untuk mendidik pemain pemain Arsenal F.C untuk bertahan sebagai sebuah pasukan.
Dengan penarikan diri saya ini, maka dengan serta merta saya akan mula menurunkan aksesori2 yang berkaitan dengan Arsenal F.C dari dalam kereta saya.
Man U 1992-1998
Arsenal 1999-2010
Germany 1996 - Present
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Dear Diary.....
I just want to say, I'm damn tired. All day long struggling to finish just 1 report, but 10 copies of it.I found a shirt that I really liked at Campbell Complex. It reads "find me on FACEBOOK", Mwahahaha!! But the shop looks like a dealers shop, full of packaging and boxes.
N e way I dared not ask the shop if they are only dealing or they selling the shirts, so I do the next best thing that I could think of, find the shirt at Downtown K.L. The price tag says RM19, I got it for RM17, but I'm sure if I tawar a bit, I could get for at least RM15.
I put on a jeans that fits easily when I was working in Sg. Siput, now barely into my third week at K.L, I had to hold my breath when trying to put on the jeans, I'm getting plump at the stomach area.
I've changed my tyres, and it feels softer than the old set. The car does not tend to shudder when it hit any potholes, and relieved me of any back ache as the result but the 31 PSI tyre pressure still makes it the ride a bit bumpy.
On my way back from Shah Alam to K.L, on the day that I changed my tyre, my balancing and alignment was so out, that at 110km/h, the steering starts to vibrate, and I found myself 'wrestling' with the steering to keep the car straight. At one point after the Batu 3 toll on a particularly straight stretch of the road, the car suddendly veered to the left eventhough I kept my hand and the steering straight.
Apparently, I haven't any time to realign and re-balance my tyres properly. So the car became unstable. Plus I was doing 110km/h on an 80km/h stretch. I was really lucky not to have veered to the right and hit the road divider.
N e way I dared not ask the shop if they are only dealing or they selling the shirts, so I do the next best thing that I could think of, find the shirt at Downtown K.L. The price tag says RM19, I got it for RM17, but I'm sure if I tawar a bit, I could get for at least RM15.
I put on a jeans that fits easily when I was working in Sg. Siput, now barely into my third week at K.L, I had to hold my breath when trying to put on the jeans, I'm getting plump at the stomach area.
I've changed my tyres, and it feels softer than the old set. The car does not tend to shudder when it hit any potholes, and relieved me of any back ache as the result but the 31 PSI tyre pressure still makes it the ride a bit bumpy.
On my way back from Shah Alam to K.L, on the day that I changed my tyre, my balancing and alignment was so out, that at 110km/h, the steering starts to vibrate, and I found myself 'wrestling' with the steering to keep the car straight. At one point after the Batu 3 toll on a particularly straight stretch of the road, the car suddendly veered to the left eventhough I kept my hand and the steering straight.
Apparently, I haven't any time to realign and re-balance my tyres properly. So the car became unstable. Plus I was doing 110km/h on an 80km/h stretch. I was really lucky not to have veered to the right and hit the road divider.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Mouthful marinara
Yesterday I ate Subway's Meatball Marinara. What a mouthful. I finished doing the draft of Kota Bharu Airport. Honestly I didn't feel that I would be long in KB. Just hope that something good comes by before the end of next year (hopefully a job in government). Hahahahahahaha
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I purposely left the title blank, b'cuz I don't know what would best represent the ramblings that I'll write today...I've always write first and think about titles later.
Just now when I was about to leave Tesco Extra Cheras and head to Jusco Maluri, I was stopped by 3 people in a car. I though they were stopping me because they want to enter the parking space next to me but apparently they're trying to sell me car immobilizers.
I don't know if I look interested to their products, but they would just not stop talking, and try to convince me to buy the immobilizer and install on the dot. Well is not exactly cheap at close to RM2k, but at an offer price I can pay by installment too.... and I am interested to install an immobilizer, just that their insistence that I do it tonight "While Stock Lasts" annoyed me, and their style of selling remind me of Do Re Mi's "jual berus gigi paksa".
I admit that I cannot afford RM2k in lump sump right away, but I don't like it when people insist that I get things "While Stock Lasts/ While on sale/while on offer/while it's still cheap". I get things when I'm ready and want to get things. Even if 6 month down, the price has swollen to RM2.5k, I would still get it if want to.
On a different note I've renewed my Insurance and my roadtax, about RM1.3k in total, still got another RM1k to spend on my car. Anyone's up for a new spoiler? No thanks, I like to keep my car running, not head turning. The designers must've been having nightmares about all the modified 'Ah Beng' Myvi's on the road today.
I got nothing against those who modified their cars for satisfaction and I believe our constitution protect the rights of freedom of all M'sian, but 'being different' does not satisfy me, I rather 'fly low under the radar'. I think I'll put a fresh set of rubber on my car, the current Silverstone Power Blitz is so damn hard, my back aches when I hit pothole(s).
I did my first FULL progress report today, introduction, scope of work, clients detail. Tomorrow I'll edit the machinery's list, workforce and physical and finacial S-Curve. Spent my whole day doing that, hope that I did okay, nothing less then 'passing with flying colours' would satisfy me.
Recently I have weird craving for an Ipod Nano. Why? because it can shoot videos (the 5th generation ones) . I want one!! But can afford it rite now, and my birthday is still a long way to go.....Huhuhu.
Just now when I was about to leave Tesco Extra Cheras and head to Jusco Maluri, I was stopped by 3 people in a car. I though they were stopping me because they want to enter the parking space next to me but apparently they're trying to sell me car immobilizers.
I don't know if I look interested to their products, but they would just not stop talking, and try to convince me to buy the immobilizer and install on the dot. Well is not exactly cheap at close to RM2k, but at an offer price I can pay by installment too.... and I am interested to install an immobilizer, just that their insistence that I do it tonight "While Stock Lasts" annoyed me, and their style of selling remind me of Do Re Mi's "jual berus gigi paksa".
I admit that I cannot afford RM2k in lump sump right away, but I don't like it when people insist that I get things "While Stock Lasts/ While on sale/while on offer/while it's still cheap". I get things when I'm ready and want to get things. Even if 6 month down, the price has swollen to RM2.5k, I would still get it if want to.
On a different note I've renewed my Insurance and my roadtax, about RM1.3k in total, still got another RM1k to spend on my car. Anyone's up for a new spoiler? No thanks, I like to keep my car running, not head turning. The designers must've been having nightmares about all the modified 'Ah Beng' Myvi's on the road today.
I got nothing against those who modified their cars for satisfaction and I believe our constitution protect the rights of freedom of all M'sian, but 'being different' does not satisfy me, I rather 'fly low under the radar'. I think I'll put a fresh set of rubber on my car, the current Silverstone Power Blitz is so damn hard, my back aches when I hit pothole(s).
I did my first FULL progress report today, introduction, scope of work, clients detail. Tomorrow I'll edit the machinery's list, workforce and physical and finacial S-Curve. Spent my whole day doing that, hope that I did okay, nothing less then 'passing with flying colours' would satisfy me.
Recently I have weird craving for an Ipod Nano. Why? because it can shoot videos (the 5th generation ones) . I want one!! But can afford it rite now, and my birthday is still a long way to go.....Huhuhu.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
The story so far....
Lets be honest now, everybody knows that I've work with MMC-Gamuda JV, and the fact that I've resigned? Not many knows. Now I want to tell the official story. I've work as a Planning Exec for the Northern double track project, and as much as I enjoy working 8-5 and inside an air-conditioned office, I'm just not cut for the job. I do not have much experience thus honestly I made too many mistakes. Some people might be okay with that, but I'm not. I felt a bit useless.....
So I've been contemplating a resignation since late last year, my girlfriend knows it, I discussed it with her and my parents knew maybe on February this year. My superior was absolutely shocked when I tendered my resignation but kept his calm. My next partition neighbour already suspects that I was gonna resign, but didn't know for sure.
Since I tendered my resignation on 31st of March 2010, I've been to 3 interviews and a SPA written test. My first interview was at Bob's company, which was keen on hiring me (let's just say the interview went well), but required me to work with them as soon as possible, I was not ready to give a short resignation notice, so I have to reject the offer.
Then I went to the SPA written test on the 10th of April 2010 WITHOUT bringing any copy of my certificate. I was sure I'm gonna fail, but I've pass, and they're calling me for the physical examination at INTAN Wilayah Selatan in Kluang, Johor on this 11th of July 2010. But as things stand, I'm set to miss the physical examination.
Then on my penultimate day(28th of May 2010) at MMC- Gamuda JV, I received a call asking me if I'm interested to work as a Road and Bridge Engineer for DPI Konsult. They said they found my resume in jobstreet.com, and asked whether I'm still working with MMC-Gamuda JV. They asked me to attend an interview on the 31st of May 2010. I attended the interview and again was successful (lucky me) and they want me to start A.S.A.P (the next day is June 1st) but I've asked for a weeks notice, since I don't want to rush in making my decision. The job was good but the remunerations was below what I expected. Not that I'm demanding much, but I made the calculations and found out that the salary they offered is inadequate to support my monthly requirements, so I politely rejected.
Last Friday (18th of June 2010) , my mom asked for my resume to forward to TRC at about 9am. An hour later I received a call for me to attend an interview at 5pm the same day. I asked is it really necessary for me to attend at such a short notice, and asked whether I could reschedule? Nope, their boss wants to interview me today. I was caught with my pants down. My first reaction is to dicth the interview, but since it's my mothers name on the line, I decided to attend anyway. I could not even study about the company. I went there expecting NOT to succeed. To my surprise, I DID NOT have to answer a single question. I'm merely a listener as the Managing Director explained about the nature of the job, etcetera. Then they asked the 'million dollar' question " Do you except the offer?" to which I spontaneously answer without even thinking "Yes". Then I like " WTF? Did I just answer yes?". OMG, I've drop the bomb on myself. Stupid me!!
The official job title is QAQC Engineer, but it also involves Progress Reporting (a.k.a Site Planning) works. Looks like I just can't run away from this planning thingy is it? The best part is, on the 1st of July 2010 I am required to go to Kota Bharu Kelantan, and my sisters wedding is on the 3rd of July.....Bye bye 'SPA physical examination', Hello 'cik mek molek'!! The project is runway extension for Kota Bharu Aiport........I can't think of anything else to write....It ends here.......
So I've been contemplating a resignation since late last year, my girlfriend knows it, I discussed it with her and my parents knew maybe on February this year. My superior was absolutely shocked when I tendered my resignation but kept his calm. My next partition neighbour already suspects that I was gonna resign, but didn't know for sure.
Since I tendered my resignation on 31st of March 2010, I've been to 3 interviews and a SPA written test. My first interview was at Bob's company, which was keen on hiring me (let's just say the interview went well), but required me to work with them as soon as possible, I was not ready to give a short resignation notice, so I have to reject the offer.
Then I went to the SPA written test on the 10th of April 2010 WITHOUT bringing any copy of my certificate. I was sure I'm gonna fail, but I've pass, and they're calling me for the physical examination at INTAN Wilayah Selatan in Kluang, Johor on this 11th of July 2010. But as things stand, I'm set to miss the physical examination.
Then on my penultimate day(28th of May 2010) at MMC- Gamuda JV, I received a call asking me if I'm interested to work as a Road and Bridge Engineer for DPI Konsult. They said they found my resume in jobstreet.com, and asked whether I'm still working with MMC-Gamuda JV. They asked me to attend an interview on the 31st of May 2010. I attended the interview and again was successful (lucky me) and they want me to start A.S.A.P (the next day is June 1st) but I've asked for a weeks notice, since I don't want to rush in making my decision. The job was good but the remunerations was below what I expected. Not that I'm demanding much, but I made the calculations and found out that the salary they offered is inadequate to support my monthly requirements, so I politely rejected.
Last Friday (18th of June 2010) , my mom asked for my resume to forward to TRC at about 9am. An hour later I received a call for me to attend an interview at 5pm the same day. I asked is it really necessary for me to attend at such a short notice, and asked whether I could reschedule? Nope, their boss wants to interview me today. I was caught with my pants down. My first reaction is to dicth the interview, but since it's my mothers name on the line, I decided to attend anyway. I could not even study about the company. I went there expecting NOT to succeed. To my surprise, I DID NOT have to answer a single question. I'm merely a listener as the Managing Director explained about the nature of the job, etcetera. Then they asked the 'million dollar' question " Do you except the offer?" to which I spontaneously answer without even thinking "Yes". Then I like " WTF? Did I just answer yes?". OMG, I've drop the bomb on myself. Stupid me!!
The official job title is QAQC Engineer, but it also involves Progress Reporting (a.k.a Site Planning) works. Looks like I just can't run away from this planning thingy is it? The best part is, on the 1st of July 2010 I am required to go to Kota Bharu Kelantan, and my sisters wedding is on the 3rd of July.....Bye bye 'SPA physical examination', Hello 'cik mek molek'!! The project is runway extension for Kota Bharu Aiport........I can't think of anything else to write....It ends here.......
Saturday, June 12, 2010
And so the whistle blows.......
I wished I had bought a ticket to South Africa and watch all the matches live. But watching in HD is as good as it gets.
N e way, the latest result as of 2am M'sian time:
South Africa 1 - 1 Mexico
Siphiwe Tshabalala 55' 79' Rafael Marquez
To be honest I didn't felt like watching them play but I've managed to urge myself not to miss it. However, I only managed to catch the 2nd half.
IMHO, in the 2nd half Mexico looks lacklusture; their tempo is slow (maybe that's how they usually play) compared to the faster and more fluid South African. Mexico's passing is not accurate/got easily cut-off by S.A. Mexico's defenders are easily outpaced by the S.A forwards and their keeper reminds me of Fabian Barthez:~ bald and eccentric. C. Blanco (the first name is quite difficult to spell) who replaced Carlos Vela looks tired and uncapable of high tempoed football game, but he does have accurate delivery into the box. Mexico controlled the possession, but unable to capitalise with it until that error from S.A's defender that allowed 3 Mexico player to be onside.
Credit to the S.A team though, they defended well (until that fateful error that resulted into the Mexican goal), keep a straight line and really hustled the Mexican player. They pushed the Mexicans on the counter-attack and show some really fluid attacking movements thanks to Steven Pienaar. Their goal is an unstopable drive to the top left corner of Perez's goal. But Mphela's lack of calmness cost them dearly as they missed a golden opportunity to score the winning goal about 5' from time.
Link
Courtesy of premierleague.com
N e way, the latest result as of 2am M'sian time:
South Africa 1 - 1 Mexico
Siphiwe Tshabalala 55' 79' Rafael Marquez
To be honest I didn't felt like watching them play but I've managed to urge myself not to miss it. However, I only managed to catch the 2nd half.
IMHO, in the 2nd half Mexico looks lacklusture; their tempo is slow (maybe that's how they usually play) compared to the faster and more fluid South African. Mexico's passing is not accurate/got easily cut-off by S.A. Mexico's defenders are easily outpaced by the S.A forwards and their keeper reminds me of Fabian Barthez:~ bald and eccentric. C. Blanco (the first name is quite difficult to spell) who replaced Carlos Vela looks tired and uncapable of high tempoed football game, but he does have accurate delivery into the box. Mexico controlled the possession, but unable to capitalise with it until that error from S.A's defender that allowed 3 Mexico player to be onside.
Credit to the S.A team though, they defended well (until that fateful error that resulted into the Mexican goal), keep a straight line and really hustled the Mexican player. They pushed the Mexicans on the counter-attack and show some really fluid attacking movements thanks to Steven Pienaar. Their goal is an unstopable drive to the top left corner of Perez's goal. But Mphela's lack of calmness cost them dearly as they missed a golden opportunity to score the winning goal about 5' from time.
Link
Courtesy of premierleague.com
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Looking forward
Since my last post, I've seen alot happening around me. A friend of my got an offer to continue studying. Another one says that "This Ramadhan would probably be my last Ramadhan as a single" which means....well you know. He/she is getting married and I wish all the best for him/her.
Which got me thinking, what have I done since I resigned? A lot of things have changed around me, my house is practically different from the one that I returned to on the 30th of May. From the wood floors to the steel door, time does fly by fast. As per my previous post, I've resigned. I've attended an interview, they offered me a position that I'm interested in, I got a reasonable wage offer, but they require me to commit at least 5 years to the job. Not that I don't want to, but as things stand, at most I'll have 2-6 months before SPA will call me for my 2nd interview.
Looking forward to that, I've decided to decline the previous job offer so my official status as of now is 'Unemployed'. But good things are coming, I know it does because everywhere people are talking about it. The WORLD CUP is finally here. At least I get to watch the WC without having to worry about getting up late for work. Mwahahahahahaha. I think I'll make a habit. I'll request a 4 year contract that coincides with the WC so that when its WC season I'll be unemployed for a month and thus can watch it 'no problemo'.
Anyways,I'm currently job hunting. I've applied a few, and still applying a few more. Just hope by the end of WC season, I'll will not be 'unemployed' anymore. Huhuhuhu. Wish me luck.
Which got me thinking, what have I done since I resigned? A lot of things have changed around me, my house is practically different from the one that I returned to on the 30th of May. From the wood floors to the steel door, time does fly by fast. As per my previous post, I've resigned. I've attended an interview, they offered me a position that I'm interested in, I got a reasonable wage offer, but they require me to commit at least 5 years to the job. Not that I don't want to, but as things stand, at most I'll have 2-6 months before SPA will call me for my 2nd interview.
Looking forward to that, I've decided to decline the previous job offer so my official status as of now is 'Unemployed'. But good things are coming, I know it does because everywhere people are talking about it. The WORLD CUP is finally here. At least I get to watch the WC without having to worry about getting up late for work. Mwahahahahahaha. I think I'll make a habit. I'll request a 4 year contract that coincides with the WC so that when its WC season I'll be unemployed for a month and thus can watch it 'no problemo'.
Anyways,I'm currently job hunting. I've applied a few, and still applying a few more. Just hope by the end of WC season, I'll will not be 'unemployed' anymore. Huhuhuhu. Wish me luck.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Looking back
Believe it or not, I'm the type of person who always look back.....I love looking back and wonder "Hmmm, what if these things didn't happen?, what if this thing happened differently?, what if I did this instead?" My girlfriend always said "It's no used crying over spilt milk". But what if the milk doesn't spill? Would I've become a different man? A better man perhaps? The answer would never be known because even if I look back as hard as I want, I could never turn back time.
Maybe things happen the way IT supposed to happen. A friend of mine once said that "We might think that we're controlling the course of our life, but at the end it's all fated and as Muslims, were required to believe in what is fated for us". Does that mean that we should, would amd could do nothing about our life? Nope that's the beauty of life. We're required to try things, to do something about our lives, but if we are not successful then don't despair. Because god works in mysterious ways. There is ALWAYS a silver lining and you only have to find it.
Looking back on my past year, I would say it is the most exciting phase of my life. Finally I can choose what I want to really do with my life, instead of people telling me "This year you all gonna sit for your UPSR" or "At the end of this semester you all will be tested". Interesting, I can finally live my life at my own pace. First and foremost, I would have to find a job that suits me.
Opportunity came knocking when MMC Gamuda JV did an Interview on my 'Official' last day at the Uni. I did my very best, followed the pointer given on the Finishing School program, but nope.... when others are rejoicing because of a 2nd call-up in Alor Star, i got nothing. When the call finally came in, I was on my way to Kedah attending a wedding. It asked me to attend an interview in P.J. P.J? Why P.J?
My question would soon be answered, I am attending an interview for a Planning Position, though I could remember clearly asking for an Engineering position? Is it all fated? IMHO, I don't know. I don't even know why I didn't get called for an Engineering position. Deep down in my heart I actually felt dissapointed. Along the way I wondered wasn't i good enough at the interview that I got relegated to doing planning works? Some people say I'm lucky out of all the people that got 2nd call-up with MMCG JV only I got the job.
To all those people, I would like to thank you for your genorosity, but no thanks. If you have any idea how hard it is to do something that you are not familiar with, then you guys would have not say such things. Plus I heard that afer about 6 months, some of the candidates that went for the Alor Star interview got call-up from Gamuda. GAMUDA? Damn, do you guys know how much Gamuda pays? I dont know exectly how much but at least 2.5k basic plus alolowences plus company shares. Is it just me or do you guys also think that I'm unlucky? And don't let me start on the fact that I've missed some good open interview chances like the JKR open interview.
So I've accepted the job, for the sake of trying and to be honest I'm not very good at it. I kept making mistakes and after much soul searching, I realized that it's due to my lack of experience and maybe I'm just not cutout for this kind of work. Not that I'm being picky, but a job should give you a fair amount of challenge, satisfaction and a thirst to come back for more. In this job, I felt nothing. I just felt that I have to go to work, it's my duty, trhe compaany pays me to do my job. Sometime last year, I turned into a zombie. Where the work control me and not the other way around.
And thus I tendered my resignation. Why? because I don't want to be a planner for life. I want to become an engineer, I want a chance to show my skill on the engin eering field. Not to my suprise, my Head of Department tried to convince me to stay an offered me a job at HQ. But I've made my mind long befiore that. I'm not interested to be a planner neither at site nor HQ. To my suprise however, my HoD said that I'm the most lowly paid Fresh graduate around. Other fresh graduate that got employed after me got 2.5k....Hmmm....It's the same tune all over again. I give my life and freedom to the company, to the project, and all I got back is this unfair treatment from the comnpany.
Is it wrong to ask for just a little fair treatment in this world? I know the world is not fair, and only god is truly fair, but its people who did nothing in the face of injustice that makes the world a lot more hell to other's less fortunate. So I came back to K.L in search of a better proposition, but so far nothing to shout about. Only the same old tunes of broken hope, shattered dream and unfair treatment.
Maybe things happen the way IT supposed to happen. A friend of mine once said that "We might think that we're controlling the course of our life, but at the end it's all fated and as Muslims, were required to believe in what is fated for us". Does that mean that we should, would amd could do nothing about our life? Nope that's the beauty of life. We're required to try things, to do something about our lives, but if we are not successful then don't despair. Because god works in mysterious ways. There is ALWAYS a silver lining and you only have to find it.
Looking back on my past year, I would say it is the most exciting phase of my life. Finally I can choose what I want to really do with my life, instead of people telling me "This year you all gonna sit for your UPSR" or "At the end of this semester you all will be tested". Interesting, I can finally live my life at my own pace. First and foremost, I would have to find a job that suits me.
Opportunity came knocking when MMC Gamuda JV did an Interview on my 'Official' last day at the Uni. I did my very best, followed the pointer given on the Finishing School program, but nope.... when others are rejoicing because of a 2nd call-up in Alor Star, i got nothing. When the call finally came in, I was on my way to Kedah attending a wedding. It asked me to attend an interview in P.J. P.J? Why P.J?
My question would soon be answered, I am attending an interview for a Planning Position, though I could remember clearly asking for an Engineering position? Is it all fated? IMHO, I don't know. I don't even know why I didn't get called for an Engineering position. Deep down in my heart I actually felt dissapointed. Along the way I wondered wasn't i good enough at the interview that I got relegated to doing planning works? Some people say I'm lucky out of all the people that got 2nd call-up with MMCG JV only I got the job.
To all those people, I would like to thank you for your genorosity, but no thanks. If you have any idea how hard it is to do something that you are not familiar with, then you guys would have not say such things. Plus I heard that afer about 6 months, some of the candidates that went for the Alor Star interview got call-up from Gamuda. GAMUDA? Damn, do you guys know how much Gamuda pays? I dont know exectly how much but at least 2.5k basic plus alolowences plus company shares. Is it just me or do you guys also think that I'm unlucky? And don't let me start on the fact that I've missed some good open interview chances like the JKR open interview.
So I've accepted the job, for the sake of trying and to be honest I'm not very good at it. I kept making mistakes and after much soul searching, I realized that it's due to my lack of experience and maybe I'm just not cutout for this kind of work. Not that I'm being picky, but a job should give you a fair amount of challenge, satisfaction and a thirst to come back for more. In this job, I felt nothing. I just felt that I have to go to work, it's my duty, trhe compaany pays me to do my job. Sometime last year, I turned into a zombie. Where the work control me and not the other way around.
And thus I tendered my resignation. Why? because I don't want to be a planner for life. I want to become an engineer, I want a chance to show my skill on the engin eering field. Not to my suprise, my Head of Department tried to convince me to stay an offered me a job at HQ. But I've made my mind long befiore that. I'm not interested to be a planner neither at site nor HQ. To my suprise however, my HoD said that I'm the most lowly paid Fresh graduate around. Other fresh graduate that got employed after me got 2.5k....Hmmm....It's the same tune all over again. I give my life and freedom to the company, to the project, and all I got back is this unfair treatment from the comnpany.
Is it wrong to ask for just a little fair treatment in this world? I know the world is not fair, and only god is truly fair, but its people who did nothing in the face of injustice that makes the world a lot more hell to other's less fortunate. So I came back to K.L in search of a better proposition, but so far nothing to shout about. Only the same old tunes of broken hope, shattered dream and unfair treatment.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Unlucky me...
Lately almost everything went wrong for me.....I am so sad....I have nobody to talk to about it...Rasa nak nangis pun ada.....(Air mataku meleleh skang. N I'm openly crying in the office). Semua benda yg ak sayang semuanya menemui kecelakaan..... People may think it's stupid to cry over about a car or a football club....but these things are things that I hold very dear to me....It's more than a passion... The flame of passion will run out someday....But not these things. These things are as important to me as drinking and eating....
Monday, January 11, 2010
12th of January
I have 6 Facebook friends that have birthday tomorrow on the 12th of January. That's like half a dozen....
2010 Resolution : 1080p Full HD
1. Buy PSP
2. Control monthly budget
3. Watch ALL movie at cinema
4. Improve work habit and result (maybe I need KPI)
5. Try to find other job
6. Learn anger management skills
7. Watch world cup and hope Germany wins
2. Control monthly budget
3. Watch ALL movie at cinema
4. Improve work habit and result (maybe I need KPI)
5. Try to find other job
6. Learn anger management skills
7. Watch world cup and hope Germany wins
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