U really wanna know??

Why is it seem easier to hurt someone that we care about than someone that we hate?? Maybe because sometimes we forget that they actually care about us too....and we take for granted everything that they do for us. Maybe its because they are closer to us emotionally that every little thing that we do, effects them in more ways that we might think possible. Or maybe its just us to blind to see that we are hurting them on purpose.

This passing weeks had me thinking, why does it seem like everything I do, seem to bring more misery to the ones that I care about, rather than joy. I'm confused and scared. Scared that somehow, things are not gonna be the same again because I keep making the same mistakes again and again. Scared that I'm gonna lose the ones I cared about right under my noses, without me even realizing it.

Because people changes, we change, our friends change, and because of mistakes that we do, or mistakes that we are afraid to admit we do, we're gonna lose it all. Life is a journey that is taken one step at a time. I'm afraid that I'm not gonna be there with them as they take the next step. And when I realize, they have left me a long way back. Huhu

Confused......really really confused.......when I meant to do good to others, but end up making mistakes and hurting them. Especially the ones that I cared about. What am I supposed to do then?? Really really confused when what I did, just created misunderstandings and any attempt to repair it just created more misunderstandings. Its like the problem never ends. Once I solved one, another comes rolling down my way. But maybe that's life right?? 'The sweetest things are not so sweet if there is nothing bitter to compare to.'

G_T

Decisions.............

Life is like driving on the highway, at some point you have to take an exit, to get to your destination. After the first turn, then another, then another......until you reach your destination. Ironically, on the highway, once you've take an exit, it is not possible to turn back. Once you've exited, that's it. the next entrance is maybe 5-10 kilometers away. And once you've taken the exit, you've lost all the path that lies on the highway beyond the exit.

Life is so much like driving on the highway, for those who might have read 'The road not taken', they might understand that once we've made a decision in our life, it is not possible to turn back, so there is no use in regretting. What done is done and can never be undone. Some times we just have to be brave. For us who makes the decisions, if the decisions are our own and not influenced by others, the consequences are our own too.

Sometimes we make decisions not because we like it, but because we have to. No matter how painful the decisions are, how others would react to the decisions, if we truly think that the decision that we make is what is best for all, we must make that decision. Just turn a deaf ear to what other people might say, because in the first place, they might not understand why we make that decision.

A father does not scold or punish his child when they make mistakes because he hates them, but because he loves them. Because he cares for them. And the father wants the child to take the punishment as a lesson, to get the child through life. No matter what the child thinks about the father, one thing that can never be denied is how much the father loves them. Only with time would the child understand, why the father acted like that.

I saw once in a movie that says 'people should not be judged by their mere looks or their history or ancestry, but by their decisions that they make'. Well for me not just the decisions, but also the consequences of the decisions. Because a decision that had been taken might not be a popular decisions, but a just decision, a decision needed for the time. With the REQUIRED result and to ensure that all parties are satisfied.

Alas I ask of thee, do not judge a decision by just the decision itself, maybe there are some deeper meaning and unseen positive side to the decision that have been made. The truth will show it self but only time will tell when.........

G_T